Ciao ciao

The flowers are yellow & the trees are pink, the sun is shinning and the days seem to extend indefinitely. People go to parks, lay on a blanket and relax in the warm and yet chilly weather.

I hardly have time to sit and relax. May is my last month at school. I'm making the most of it as I won't have to work for almost 4 months but to be honest I'm torn between being happy and being sad.

Being happy because I'll be free of any obligation and I can wander around the world as much as I like ( something I'm really excited about ) and eventually go back home where I will have all the things I missed so much. Food, family, sun, tropical landscapes, familiar roads, and this might sound silly but I'm dying to eat a sweet tropical pineapple . Also being happy about the future and these new adventures that await

But I'm silently aware of what I leave behind me.The fantastic people I met who were my friends and sometimes even more.Saying goodbye is torturous because I can never say what I really feel, what I really want. For some reasons the words are blocked in my throat . I can't help but saying stupid stuff like " See ya ! " & i know I will not see them again.

I hate this pang in my stomach but this is something I must learn to live with. I see it as the end of a very good book with great characters great stories and adventures where the only thing you feel after turning the last page is bitterness and emptiness.

But this is not the end.

well, not entirely.